I’m stuck.
This isn’t news to you if you’ve been reading my blog.
But because I have nothing to do right now, I’m writing this.

It’s 12:20pm. I’m waiting around for 1pm to come to go to a meditation class. So, I have 40 minutes to waste, and I have absolutely no idea what to do. And the longer I sit in that feeling, the more I get depressed.

It’s like I can’t think of anything. Maybe it’s because I’ve been on medications for 2 years, and it has blocked some receptors in my brain which receive or produce thought. I don’t know.

After all the self-help and spiritual things I’ve read, I still feel stuck. The teaching that I agree with the most, The Teachings of Abraham, might say to look for things to appreciate. And I don’t even wanna do that.

Even this is hard to write.
So, I guess I’ll stop there. If you have any insights, feel free to share them below. Thank you!

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