3 Good Things:
I got through most of the day (without sleeping)
I shared my t-shirt design with a couple people
I saw my friend Laura.
Trying to be positive, even though I can’t sleep through the night, and I’m bored.
On Monday I have a call to talk about creating my cellphone app.
Sunday, I will be attending a livestream of a “Spiritual group” I found online, based where I want to move to. So hopefully I can chat with people and make some connections.
I don’t really have a 3rd thing… so I’ll just say that I sold one of the things that I wanted to sell, to be able to afford to move. So hopefully that gets things moving a bit.
I think I might plan on saving $100/month so I can move by the end of the year.
I got distracted by other things. Thanks for reading!
Did you know that Buddha never used the word love?
He used a word that means “non-violence” which basically means “I won’t hurt you.”
So the song “What Is Love” is right!! 😀
Have I talked about this already? I want to make a cellphone app. Again. I wanted to before, but I gave up on it because of all the work that would have to go into making it. But on Monday, I’m going to talk with someone that may be able to help me. At least I hope so. I’m ready! Let’s do this!!
Here’s a support post for those that don’t shower regularly – because of depression.
I know the feels.
Let me just say this first – I’m writing this blog post because I heard someone that I like say something negative about people that don’t shower regularly. And I guess it struck a nerve with me, because I don’t shower regularly.
And you know what, maybe they will be there someday too! Maybe they feel it some days, being tired of it all. Being tired of cooking for yourself, and taking care of yourself. And having no one to take care of you, some days.
And right now I’m feeling that, more so because I’m also depressed. I don’t feel like showering. I feel good enough right now to shower, but I don’t feel like doing it because I’m tired of the same old routine, day after day, week after week. And I can’t seem to break out of it.
I know that if I shower now, I’ll have to shower again in a 2-3 days. And I won’t be up for it! And I’ll just be right back to where I am right now. So it’s like, what’s the point!?
I know I’ll shower some day soon! But I CANNOT GET MY LIFE TOGETHER IN 2-3 DAYS.
I would write more, but it’s just depressing. So I won’t. Thanks for reading!
“If only I felt like today was a blessing and not a burden.”
I feel like crap and it’s only 8am. I woke up at around 6am with the sun.
I’m too depressed to write.
I started listening to the audiobook “The Path of Love” by OSHO.
I basically learned that I need to stop living in seclusion. Somehow… with a pandemic going on, and my general fear of people.
I don’t know why I started writing in this blog again. It doesn’t help to write down how you’re feeling. I still feel depressed most of the time.
It’s 4pm. I’m waiting for the only good thing in my life, my favorite streamer to start streaming. I don’t know when they will though. Usually around 4-5pm. So I guess it will be 5pm.
UGH! That’s all I have to say.
Instead of editing my previous post, I thought I would just start a new one.
How do people fill up their days so easily? It’s so hard for me to do!! I have nothing and I have no one pretty much. Not enough to have a full day. I fight not sleeping through it.