I don’t know why I feel lonely sometimes with so many people on the internet.
It is said that in 30 days you could change your life for the better.
Well, starting today, tonight at 2:22am December 1st those 30 days begin.
When I first discovered the Law of Attraction I would see what I wanted everywhere. Mostly a car I wanted — in the colour I wanted. But I never got it. Now I know that there is an element of Trust or Faith involved. This was the Universe trying to show me that it was listening… but I think all I thought was “I want it but I don’t have it.”
Now I want a drum set at a price I can afford. And it took a lot of searching and waiting, but I found one just an hour away from me. That’s too far, but I’m not disappointed this time, because I know that all things are possible. And I just have to wait, patiently, expectantly.
I am almost always constantly alone. If anyone wants to be my friend, that would really help. Thanks.
Still trying my best to feel good.
The sun is coming out a bit.
I can feel the cool breeze from the open window in my apartment.
I have a beautiful calendar with a picture of Niagara Falls with the colourful lights on it during the winter time.
That’s all I’ve got.
There are things that I used to feel good about.
Right now, those things are far and few.
I’m trying my best to feel good, but… it’s hard.
This is all I’ve got:
It’s 8:20pm and I’m not sleeping.
I feel pretty good
The Universe is trying to show me the path of least resistance.
Coldplay just released a new album on Nov. 22!!
I’ve always WANTED to make music for a living. That’s the problem, I’ve always wanted it, I never took any action to bring the dream to fruition. Or the course of action wasn’t clear enough. Than I met someone who inspired me with their poetry, which made me want to write as well. That was the beginning of my writing journey; but I still can’t write a full song.
The real problem is, I don’t feel very musical anymore. If I was a record, I’d be broken.
And I guess I was never all that musical to begin with. I dabbled in using the keyboard and playing guitar, but I’ve always kind of been a drummer — not the best, apparently, but still better than some.
I guess the reason I’m writing all this is I want to get clearer on my path in life. Should I be a musician? Am I a drummer, guitarist, writer, or none-of-the-above?
For one thing, drums are expensive! You can buy a cheap used guitar for $100-200 (CDN) but to find an electronic drum set (which is what I need because I live in an apartment) in my price range is almost impossible.
I need money!
Than I also need the motivation and inspiration to play.
That’s where I’m at at the moment.
Any thoughts are appreciated!
Thanks for reading!