Death & Wellness

I don’t think I’ll ever be well.
Is that possible?
I know it’s possible to die of cancer.
But is it possible to die WITH a broken heart?
Probably.
But of course you never think it’s possible.
You never think “that could happen to me.”

So I’m living each day like I have tomorrow
Which isn’t true.
I could die any day.
And I could die without ever being well again.
That’s kinda sad.
But at least it’ll be over.

Goodnight.

The Law of Attraction

When I first discovered the Law of Attraction I would see what I wanted everywhere. Mostly a car I wanted — in the colour I wanted. But I never got it. Now I know that there is an element of Trust or Faith involved. This was the Universe trying to show me that it was listening… but I think all I thought was “I want it but I don’t have it.”

Now I want a drum set at a price I can afford. And it took a lot of searching and waiting, but I found one just an hour away from me. That’s too far, but I’m not disappointed this time, because I know that all things are possible. And I just have to wait, patiently, expectantly.

Positivity

It’s 1:31pm.
Still trying my best to feel good.
The sun is coming out a bit.

I can feel the cool breeze from the open window in my apartment.
I have a beautiful calendar with a picture of Niagara Falls with the colourful lights on it during the winter time.

That’s all I’ve got.

Trying to Keep my Head Up

There are things that I used to feel good about.
Right now, those things are far and few.
I’m trying my best to feel good, but… it’s hard.

Any suggestions?

This is all I’ve got:

It’s 8:20pm and I’m not sleeping.
I feel pretty good
The Universe is trying to show me the path of least resistance.
Coldplay just released a new album on Nov. 22!!