Got through another day… I also starting taking a mood supplement called 5-HTP yesterday. I hope it helps. I’m taking a probiotic, which is helping. I’m also working on developing and app. So if you know anything about Android development, let me know. Because I have questions. Thanks for reading!
Does anybody ever think about the fact that we’re basically floating on a rock through space?
Or at least that’s what it would appear to look like from the outside, in… But I have a suspicion that it’s all an illusion. For example, when you’re in a dream, everything is created by your mind… so outer-space is the mind’s way of explaining where we are… because I believe that life is like a dream. But really, we’re “no where” and everything is created by our minds. Which I think is the truth, according to quantum physics.
On the subject… Earth is going through some major changes, man. I feel like we’re all basically waiting for the world to change. Or is it me? Or am I talking about a John Mayer song?
Did you ever think about how your life effects those around you? For example; if you became rich, most likely your family would benefit as well. And so on… That’s just one tiny example. Be that a somewhat superficial one. Another example; if you have a good day, it could snowball, and it could effect everyone you meet. That’s why people say “We’re all connected.” This interconnectedness runs deep. The failure of one person, means the failure of many. And the success of one person, means the success of many.
I’m alone right now. But not really lonely. Which is a first in a long time. Of course it would be nice to have somebody to talk to, but the feeling of depression inside has gone for the time being. I guess because I had an OT nurse visit today and we went for a walk. Then I spoke with someone at a cafe for a while. So I guess I got my social quota in for the day… or at least for the morning. There’s always the dreaded evening. Something to look forward too! Ha.
Ok, what can I write that’s not depressing? I don’t know. lol!
It’s 1am right now. I don’t feel like sleeping. I’m up listening to music… If you have any music recommendations, I am somewhat willing to listen to them. I’m on YouNow right now (http://www.younow.com/lifedreamradio) broadcasting what I’m listening to again. I’m actually trying to find some sad songs, because that’s how I feel, and I need music to match how I feel. A song recommendation, “Epiphany” by Staind; which I will post below. This song is good for right now. It’s sullen (?) and relaxing. Now I just need to write or do something creative…
Just a tiny little bored “rant” I guess. I don’t know if this is a rant or not, or me just spewing my guts.
So I use a lot of online services like YouNow and Discord to chat with people, to cure my loneliness. But it doesn’t quite work. I haven’t formed any long lasting or close relationships through it. There was one person I “reached out” to, but she didn’t get back to me. I’m tired of feeling alone. I say “feeling,” and not “being,” because I’m not alone, I just feel alone. It’s like the song “Something’s Missing” by John Mayer, that I’m listening to now. I’ll link it below, if you haven’t heard it before.
This is somewhat nice, writing this blog… it gives me something to do, alone… listening to music, without needing anybody there. But I think most of the time I’m striving for attention. I don’t know if that’s a bad thing or not, but it’s what I need, I think.
John Mayer has some pretty good songs. The next song on the album I’m listening to is “New Deep.” You should check it out! I’ll link it below as well!
I’m on YouNow right now broadcasting what I’m listening to, and people just pop in and leave really quickly. It’s a little disconcerting.
I guess I could check out someone that’s online right now. See what’s up. Post this. And probably come back to it later. I enjoy writing.
After having somewhat of a good day in a long time, I can safely say that the people around me know absolutely nothing about caring and compassion. And I think the “normal” ones in society are the ones ostracized from it. Goodnight.