Positivity

It’s 1:31pm.
Still trying my best to feel good.
The sun is coming out a bit.

I can feel the cool breeze from the open window in my apartment.
I have a beautiful calendar with a picture of Niagara Falls with the colourful lights on it during the winter time.

That’s all I’ve got.

Trying to Keep my Head Up

There are things that I used to feel good about.
Right now, those things are far and few.
I’m trying my best to feel good, but… it’s hard.

Any suggestions?

This is all I’ve got:

It’s 8:20pm and I’m not sleeping.
I feel pretty good
The Universe is trying to show me the path of least resistance.
Coldplay just released a new album on Nov. 22!!

Where I’m at

I’ve always WANTED to make music for a living. That’s the problem, I’ve always wanted it, I never took any action to bring the dream to fruition. Or the course of action wasn’t clear enough. Than I met someone who inspired me with their poetry, which made me want to write as well. That was the beginning of my writing journey; but I still can’t write a full song.

The real problem is, I don’t feel very musical anymore. If I was a record, I’d be broken.

And I guess I was never all that musical to begin with. I dabbled in using the keyboard and playing guitar, but I’ve always kind of been a drummer — not the best, apparently, but still better than some.

I guess the reason I’m writing all this is I want to get clearer on my path in life. Should I be a musician? Am I a drummer, guitarist, writer, or none-of-the-above?

For one thing, drums are expensive! You can buy a cheap used guitar for $100-200 (CDN) but to find an electronic drum set (which is what I need because I live in an apartment) in my price range is almost impossible.

I need money!

Than I also need the motivation and inspiration to play.

That’s where I’m at at the moment.
Any thoughts are appreciated!

Thanks for reading!