I’m still awake.
It’s 12:30am.
I don’t want to sleep.

I have nothing to look forward to tomorrow. Which sucks.
Or maybe I won’t even wake up.
Who knows.

I’m sad.

I wish I could watch a cool anime or something. But I don’t really know of any. Except for one. But I don’t know anything about it. Only the title.

I just watched the trailer. And I can’t get into it. Too jaded / depressed I think.

Anyway… maybe I’ll have a drink.
Just kidding. Just wanted to rhyme.

Have a good night!


Showering when Depressed

Here’s a support post for those that don’t shower regularly – because of depression.

It’s OK!

I know the feels.

Let me just say this first – I’m writing this blog post because I heard someone that I like say something negative about people that don’t shower regularly. And I guess it struck a nerve with me, because I don’t shower regularly.

And you know what, maybe they will be there someday too! Maybe they feel it some days, being tired of it all. Being tired of cooking for yourself, and taking care of yourself. And having no one to take care of you, some days.

It’s tiring.

And right now I’m feeling that, more so because I’m also depressed. I don’t feel like showering. I feel good enough right now to shower, but I don’t feel like doing it because I’m tired of the same old routine, day after day, week after week. And I can’t seem to break out of it.

I know that if I shower now, I’ll have to shower again in a 2-3 days. And I won’t be up for it! And I’ll just be right back to where I am right now. So it’s like, what’s the point!?

I know I’ll shower some day soon! But I CANNOT GET MY LIFE TOGETHER IN 2-3 DAYS.

I would write more, but it’s just depressing. So I won’t. Thanks for reading!



I don’t know why I started writing in this blog again. It doesn’t help to write down how you’re feeling. I still feel depressed most of the time.

It’s 4pm. I’m waiting for the only good thing in my life, my favorite streamer to start streaming. I don’t know when they will though. Usually around 4-5pm. So I guess it will be 5pm.

UGH! That’s all I have to say.



Today has been a weird day. Oh yea. I forgot it’s a Sunday. It’s pretty dead around here on a Sunday. It’s quite nice. Almost like living in the country side. But I have nothing to do…

So I’ve been bored. First I was depressed, took a nap, woke up feeling better, now I’m bored.

It’s 8pm. The day is pretty much over. I’ll probably go to sleep early and be up at 3am as usual. Because I don’t know if you know this, but I can’t sleep. I can sleep for about 3-4 hours, that’s it.

Gotta be up tomorrow at 9am to take a phone call from the sleep center I went to – to get the results. Hopefully it’s something good.



Ok, so since I get at least 1 vistor per post, I thought I would try post every day… and make this sort of my “Internet Hub.” Except I’m not too sure what to write about.

I just woke up from a “depression nap.” I call it that, because I sleep when I’m depressed. But sometimes I don’t sleep well, and it makes me more depressed. That was the case this time.

It’s now 9:15pm. And honestly, I’ll probably go back to sleep again soon. Even though I don’t sleep well. Because I’m not sure what I’m going to do for the rest of the night…

Yea, so that’s it. That’s the post.
Thanks for reading!