I don’t know why I feel lonely sometimes with so many people on the internet.
I am almost always constantly alone. If anyone wants to be my friend, that would really help. Thanks.
I’m feeling pretty alright tonight.
Or at least I’m trying to keep it up.
It’s 9pm… and I don’t want to go to sleep until about 10 or 11pm.
So I’m just trying to stay awake and keep busy.
What are you doing? Oh, reading this. =P
I’m trying to deeply relax and just let things happen.
But things aren’t exactly the way I would like them to be…
And it’s really hard to just “Let it Be” (to put it in the words of The Beatles)
But I’m trying!!
So I don’t know who’s going to read this.
I have 53 followers right now. So I guess it will be some of you.
Hmmm… what should I title this? LOL Bored?
I haven’t really said much.
So yea, I guess that’s it. Thanks for reading! And I’ll see you again soon!
I’m not feeling too bad this morning. But I know things will probably change by evening, because you know, my life is empty and I’m alone.
That turned dark quickly.
For me, depression is like having a cold. It’s not like I’m really sad for a reason. I’m really sad for no reason. And it almost feels like having a cold. That’s not entirely true. I’m mostly sad because I’m alone.
What’s depression like for you?
I’m looking through my old journals, and I found this one, from about a year ago.
“The biggest truth that I can think of right now is “You’re not alone.” That means that there are people out there that are going through the same thing that you’re going through. It’s not that you’re not actually alone. Even though you may very well be – but you can reach out if you want to.
I don’t personally want to reach out. Even though it pains me inside. I prefer to hide. But the biggest comfort is knowing that I’m not alone. If I could repeat that to myself – what would that mean? Would it mean that I have the strength to go outside? Would it mean that I would feel OK taking a shower? Would it mean that I would feel happy again? I don’t know. But this I know: I’m not alone.”
Ok, so I’ve contacted my friend that I hadn’t talk to in awhile. We talked. It was nice. We’re friends again 🙂 … We’ll see how it goes, I guess.
I also left a message for another friend. He hasn’t gotten back to me yet.
I’m just tired of being alone. I’m always the one to reach out; but almost no one ever reaches out back. The one friend that I’ve had for the past 7 years is the only one that has.
On a different note, it’s 2:32pm. It’s Springtime! The weather is beautiful! I hear music in cars driving by; “Happy hour, happy hour, happy hour is here.” – Little Bones by The Tragically Hip. I took a shower. Everything is good… for now. Although I’m still alone.
Thanks to the new followers!