Thoughts

Something Positive

I’m alone right now. But not really lonely. Which is a first in a long time.
Of course it would be nice to have somebody to talk to, but the feeling of depression inside has gone for the time being.
I guess because I had an OT nurse visit today and we went for a walk. Then I spoke with someone at a cafe for a while.
So I guess I got my social quota in for the day… or at least for the morning.
There’s always the dreaded evening. Something to look forward too! Ha.

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Music · Thoughts

Listening to Music

2:41pm: Listening to music/streaming to YouNow right now. (http://www.younow.com/lifedreamradio)

Slept for a few hours.
I don’t really feel that great. But what else is new?
Wish I knew what to write about…
Here’s a song for those that might be feeling lonely and down like me.

Journal · Thoughts

This Afternoon

This may be an “out of the Vortex” blog… but I’m going to post it anyway.

My afternoon has been good. I took a shower and got a haircut! And saw my favorite person that I know! πŸ™‚ And got TWO hugs from them! πŸ™‚ πŸ˜›

Not so much out of the Vortex, but I’m going to listen to a YouTube video right now that might put me in a bit more! πŸ™‚

Have a good evening!
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Journal · Thoughts

I guess I will be honest…
The rest of my morning hasn’t been going so well.
I’m alone almost all of the time. (A little background, I don’t have a job. I’ve tried looking.)
A video I watched about loneliness said to “reach out to people” but I have no one to reach out to…
… and no one can change the way I feel but me. Unless they’re a miracle worker.

That is all.
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Journals

Not Alone

I’m looking through my old journals, and I found this one, from about a year ago.

“The biggest truth that I can think of right now is “You’re not alone.” That means that there are people out there that are going through the same thing that you’re going through. It’s not that you’re not actually alone. Even though you may very well be – but you can reach out if you want to.
I don’t personally want to reach out. Even though it pains me inside. I prefer to hide. But the biggest comfort is knowing that I’m not alone. If I could repeat that to myself – what would that mean? Would it mean that I have the strength to go outside? Would it mean that I would feel OK taking a shower? Would it mean that I would feel happy again? I don’t know. But this I know: I’m not alone.”

 

Thoughts

Little Bones

Ok, so I’ve contacted my friend that I hadn’t talk to in awhile. We talked. It was nice. We’re friends again πŸ™‚ … We’ll see how it goes, I guess.

I also left a message for another friend. He hasn’t gotten back to me yet.
I’m just tired of being alone. I’m always the one to reach out; but almost no one ever reaches out back. The one friend that I’ve had for the past 7 years is the only one that has.

On a different note, it’s 2:32pm. It’s Springtime! The weather is beautiful! I hear music in cars driving by; “Happy hour, happy hour, happy hour is here.” – Little Bones by The Tragically Hip. I took a shower. Everything is good… for now.Β Although I’m still alone.

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