Meditation and Baggage

When I started my spiritual journey, meditation was easy — almost second nature. Now it’s almost impossible. Can it be years of baggage — emotional hardships — that is preventing inner peace (and joy) — I know the answer is yes. But I’m still wondering what is it that I can do to help myself feel better? Should I continue to try to mediate, even though I can’t. Should I just continue on trying to enjoy life, even though it’s hard. I don’t know.

Bliss

What are you doing?

Me: Oh, just trying to figure out how to achieve bliss. Not happiness, but bliss. Which came once to me while doing nothing, meditating… 15 years ago. Ever since than I’ve been trying, to some degree, in achieving that in my waking life. The only person I’ve ever heard talk about it is OSHO – which I discovered way back when I first experienced it, but never read his books – I just had his Zen Tarot Cards. Now I’m starting to read his books. So it’s only a matter of time.

P.S. I can’t help but think that I’ve wasted the past 10-15 years not reading these books before. But than again, I didn’t know about them.