Thoughts

4am

So I don’t sleep well.
I woke up, checked my phone, and noticed that someone liked me on the dating app I have. It surprised me because I just posted a random photo I just took, when I didn’t look so good. OR feel so good. And it made me wonder, could someone like me when I feel so bad? Or when I’m in such a mess.

I guess that’s what everyone is looking for, especially when they’re in the state that I’m in and to be honest, that’s part of the reason I even downloaded the app. The other reason, is to feel that way about someone else.

Thoughts

Work and Friendship

I have an acquaintance that’s looking for a job. It seems he’s always been looking for a job and will probably move if he doesn’t, which would probably be a good idea. But I want to help him anyway. He says he’s looking for anything. But that doesn’t really help. I would call him up and ask him more, but I don’t want to pry. If he’s looking for anything, it shouldn’t be so hard to find a job, especially after so long. He’s probably not telling me something. What do you think? Should I pry or stay out of it? I mean, if I stumble across a job for him I’ll call him up right away. But I’m not going to go looking for “just anything” because there are lots of jobs out there. Or so they say. Just thought I would share.

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Thoughts

Alone

I spend every day alone. Nobody messages me. For the past 7 years I’ve had only ONE close friend. That may have been my first mistake, because not so recently I decided that this person wasn’t a good person to have in my life. Now I’m alone. She still tries to re-connect with me and I still shut her out. I don’t know if this is a good idea or not, because the alternative is to be alone. But when I think back to when she was in my life, it wasn’t good. The question is, was it better than now? Probably. But I don’t know for sure. I guess I should just open my heart again, if that’s the only option I have.

There are a couple other relationships I’ve shut out as well, but I won’t get into them right now.

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