Death & Wellness

I don’t think I’ll ever be well.
Is that possible?
I know it’s possible to die of cancer.
But is it possible to die WITH a broken heart?
Probably.
But of course you never think it’s possible.
You never think “that could happen to me.”

So I’m living each day like I have tomorrow
Which isn’t true.
I could die any day.
And I could die without ever being well again.
That’s kinda sad.
But at least it’ll be over.

Goodnight.

Meditation and Baggage

When I started my spiritual journey, meditation was easy — almost second nature. Now it’s almost impossible. Can it be years of baggage — emotional hardships — that is preventing inner peace (and joy) — I know the answer is yes. But I’m still wondering what is it that I can do to help myself feel better? Should I continue to try to mediate, even though I can’t. Should I just continue on trying to enjoy life, even though it’s hard. I don’t know.

Just Do It

How do you create music?
I had the false assumption that you had to be inspired. That you had to hear some tune in your head, and try to emulate it.
Than I sat down with my guitar and realized, you just have to do it!
That’s what I’m doing now. I’m downloading Fruity Loops right now to see if I can create something with that. I need to create something with layers and drums — so that’s what I’m going to try to do! If you have any tips, let me know!

Today was good.

It’s really hard for me to remember good memories. It’s been so long since I’ve been actually happy, for the most part, than sad. Now it’s the opposite. But I will try to remember TODAY as good, and keep writing more blogs with a more positive bent.

Today was good. I woke up. lol! It was really sunny today, which is unusual. I cleaned a bit, did some laundry, and listened to some music! I also went to the gym with some friends. It was good. Today isn’t exactly over, but it feels like it with the sun going down so early. So I think that’s it, for now. Tune in tomorrow where I try to keep the momentum going!